Conscious awareness

When reading about conscious awareness this week, it seemed fitting to reflect on some past experiences that have influenced certain feelings and beliefs that I have had in the past or currently have, that I desire to be change for the better. Altering these established habits of behaving and thinking will hopefully lessen the stress I felt last semester. Under normal circumstances I am very orderly and seem to function at my best when I feel organized.
In knowing this about myself, it is difficult to look back at my first semester at Wingate. The visualization is not a good one. Most every day I felt much of my time was spent trying to figure out a way to be organized with my computerized notes, my new laptop computer, Vista navigation, and studying for tests from power points in addition to text reading. I felt very proficient with my desktop at home and its internal software; it took some time to adjust to the laptop and the sensitivity of the cursor. Often I became frustrated with myself because it took awhile to adapt-occasionally I'd quietly sigh from frustration with self.
Consciousness about the need to re-organize and re-plan an effective study pattern helped me to "wake up" and change some of the study patterns I developed during the first semester. Christmas and the entire break was very relaxing. From time to time I would take out one of the new texts or some articles and read more leisurely and in a state of less internal chaos. Starting the second semester feeling more organized has been much more enjoyable and without question less stressful. Hopefully my conscious awareness of the problem, the need for change, and taking the steps to follow the plan will help me to feel like my old self again.